Home + Heart + Health = Happiness?

Can the equation really be this simple? If one element is lacking – it can trust on the other 2 for support. But what if you catch yourself in a moment where 2 or all 3 are lacking?

I have a home without a house, a (metaphorical) hole in my heart and a questionable health situation. I guess the only thing I can do now is wait for the ducks to get in line. In the meantime, there’s Men At Work’s Overkill to tide me over.

I can’t get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I’ll be alright
Perhaps it’s just imagination.

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away.

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It’s time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there’s pretty lights
And though there’s little variation
It nullifies the night from overkill.

I can’t get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I’ll be alright
It’s just overkill.

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Tell them that it’s human nature.

So, everyone’s stopped updating their Facebook statuses about it. CNN has moved on to other news. MTV has resumed its regular screening of non music videos.

This one thought is lodged in my head, “Why only now?” Why didn’t everyone sell-out his albums a week before? (Anyway, who the hell doesn’t already have his albums?) Why didn’t they ever run the marathon of his music videos before? Butter Factory even played Black or White last Friday. Good grief, Black or White?! Of all bloody songs to play at a club – talk about a cheap attempt to jump on the Grief Bandwagon. 

It’s always been the way of the world for someone to be over-appreciate posthumously (case in point: Heath Ledger. All of a sudden, he became this brilliant actor, dark, deep actor but everyone seems to have forgotten he acted in 10 Things I Hate About You. Great movie.) But what really bugs me about this sudden flooding of adoration would be that this was the very same world, formats, platforms that abandoned him. The ones that mocked him and teased him. Why is he wearing pajamas? What’s with Bubbles? Not another child? Those aren’t his kids! I only hope that he had known that he was always there, under layers of insults and heckling.

I can honestly say that I have never given a shit about any of that. Talent is talent, is talent. Don’t Stop Til You Get Enough is my Number One “get me on the dance floor” song. Who cares what he does in his personal life and how he achieves self gratification?

It’s a flagrant hypocrisy that everyone has embraced with convenient selective memory.

If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make that change.

Oh, the (VH1) 90’s!

I was glued to MTV’s VH1 Top 100 Hits of the 90’s last night – I was literally sitting up in bed, exclaiming to myself at every song that came on. I almost died recollecting Rico Suave, The Breeders, The Cranberries. I dug up the list online and here it is. I bolded the ones I completely agreed it or have something to say. What the hell is Britney and Backstreet Boys doing on there? Destiny’s Child? They may have squeezed in at the 90’s – but next to EMF, “Unbelievable”, they couldn’t be more misfit.

 

1. Nirvana – “Smells Like Teen Spirit” (No way does Nirvana sneak over U2.)

2. U2 – “One” (It’s called “One”! It should have been number one!)

3. Backstreet Boys – “I Want It That Way” (Naah…)

4. Whitney Houston – “I Will Always Love You” (This song always reminds me of my nutty sister who could lip synch this song perfectly)

5. Madonna – “Vogue” (Danced to this song for school performance)

6. Sir Mix-A-Lot – “Baby Got Back” (I cannot lie.)

7. Britney Spears – “…Baby One More Time” (Hell no)

8. TLC – “Waterfalls” (I always preferred “Creep”)

9. R.E.M. – “Losing My Religion” (For shizzle)

10. Sinéad O’Connor – “Nothing Compares 2 U”

11. Pearl Jam – “Jeremy” (Too biased. Incredible song, incredible video but give me “Black” anyday)

12. Alanis Morissette – “You Oughta Know” (With my cousin Ryan, driving in Farmy’s car)

13. Dr. Dre (featuring Snoop Doggy Dogg) – “Nuthin’ but a “G” Thang”

14. Mariah Carey – “Vision of Love”

15. Red Hot Chili Peppers – “Under the Bridge”

16. MC Hammer – “U Can’t Touch This” (Nuff said.)

17. Destiny’s Child – “Say My Name”

18. Metallica – “Enter Sandman” (This should be way up there in the Top 5. It’s epic)

19. Beastie Boys – “Sabotage”

20. Hanson – “MMMBop”

21. Celine Dion – “My Heart Will Go On”

22. Beck – “Loser” (Oh, the time of Beck!)

23. Salt-N-Pepa with En Vogue – “Whatta Man”

24. House of Pain – “Jump Around”

25. Soundgarden – “Black Hole Sun” (Too biased but “Spoonman” wins every time for me)

26. Eminem – “My Name Is”

27. Counting Crows – “Mr. Jones” (I always preferred “Long December”)

28. Ricky Martin – “Livin’ la Vida Loca” (No point lying about it now, we all danced to this song like loons)

29. Vanilla Ice – “Ice Ice Baby”

30. *NSYNC – “Tearin’ Up My Heart” (Please.)

31. Radiohead – “Creep”

32. BLACKstreet – “No Diggity” (You don’t get more 90’s than Blackstreet and Mohd. Sultan)

33. Spice Girls – “Wannabe”

34. Third Eye Blind – “Semi-Charmed Life” (Loved the whole album more than this song alone)

35. Oasis – “Wonderwall”

36. C+C Music Factory – “Gonna Make You Sweat (Everybody Dance Now)”

37. Green Day – “Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)”

38. Christina Aguilera – “Genie In A Bottle”

39. Goo Goo Dolls – “Iris”

40. Color Me Badd – “I Wanna Sex You Up”

41. Spin Doctors – “Two Princes”

42. Collective Soul – “Shine”

43. En Vogue – “My Lovin’ (You’re Never Gonna Get It)”

44. The Fugees – “Killing Me Softly With His Song”

45. Hootie & the Blowfish – “Only Wanna Be With You”

46. Shania Twain – “You’re Still the One”

47. Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch – “Good Vibrations” (Marky Mark, you have my heart, from then till now)

48. Matchbox Twenty – “3 A.M.”

49. Jewel – “Who Will Save Your Soul” (First song I ever learnt on guitar)

50. Alice in Chains – “Man in the Box” (Too biased)

51. 2Pac  – “California Love” (My Nan, dancing to this song on my 21st birthday)

52. Sugar Ray – “Fly” (Always preferred “RPM”, but now I feel like listening to “Fly”)

53. Naughty by Nature – “O.P.P.”

54. Joan Osborne – “One of Us”

55. Fiona Apple – “Criminal” (Loved “Tidal” – all of it)

56. L.L. Cool J – “Mama Said Knock You Out” (Don’t call it a comeback)

57. Jay-Z featuring Amil and Ja Rule – “Can I Get A…”

58. Sophie B. Hawkins – “Damn, I Wish I Was Your Lover” (Kelly and Dylan making out in 90210)

59. Weezer – “Buddy Holly”

60. Bell Biv DeVoe – “Poison”

61. Sheryl Crow – “All I Wanna Do”

62. Live – “I Alone” (Too biased, I loved Live for a long time)

63. The Notorious B.I.G. featuring Mase & Puff Daddy – “Mo Money Mo Problems” (Wait, you can get more 90’s than Blackstreet and Mohd. Sultan)

64. The Presidents of the United States of America – “Peaches” (One word. Barry)

65. Digital Underground – “The Humpty Dance”

66. Edwin McCain – “I’ll Be”

67. Deee-Lite – “Groove Is In The Heart”

68. Will Smith – “Gettin’ Jiggy Wit It”

69. Korn – “Freak on a Leash” (How does “Freak on a Leash” make it and not “Blind”?)

70. Jamiroquai – “Virtual Insanity”

71. Arrested Development – “Tennessee”

72. Barenaked Ladies – “One Week”

73. Marcy Playground – “Sex and Candy”

74. Cher – “Believe”

75. Kris Kross – “Jump”

76. Blues Traveler – “Run-around”

77. Ice Cube – “It Was a Good Day”

78. Lenny Kravitz – “Are You Gonna Go My Way” (First song I ever learnt on drums. Cindy Blackman kicks ass)

79. Meredith Brooks – “Bitch”

80. Right Said Fred – “I’m Too Sexy”

81. Paula Cole – “I Don’t Want to Wait”

82. Geto Boys – “Mind Playing Tricks on Me”

83. The Breeders – “Cannonball”

84. Snow – “Informer”

85. Cypress Hill – “Insane In The Brain”

86. The Cranberries – “Linger” (A girlfriend in school singing, “You know I’m searching food for you…”)

87. Billy Ray Cyrus – “Achy Breaky Heart”

88. Duncan Sheik – “Barely Breathing”

89. Liz Phair – “Never Said”

90. New Radicals – “You Get What You Give”

91. Sarah McLachlan – “Building a Mystery”

92. Public Enemy – “911 Is a Joke”

93. Lisa Loeb – “Stay (I Missed You)” (Loved the movie, loved the soundtrack)

94. Fastball – “The Way”

95. Montell Jordan – “This Is How We Do It” (Always gets me on the dancefloor till now)

96. Nelson – “(Can’t Live Without Your) Love and Affection” (Good God, the video and that hair! It needs a picture!)

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97. Prince & The New Power Generation – “Gett Off”

98. EMF – “Unbelievable”

99. Missy Elliott – “The Rain (Supa Dupa Fly)”

100. Gerardo – “Rico Suave”

Viva La Coldplay!

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Coldplay was supreme. So supreme I am actually blogging about it. Generally speaking, when asked to list my top 5 bands, I never put Coldplay in there but when push came to shove (i.e. at the concert) – I knew all the words to their songs – who knew.

I almost fainted when they performed Fix You, which is my ultimate favourite Coldplay song – I have to really give props to the audience who sang along, most enthusiastically, to every song. With the first encore song being The Scientist, I think I was ready to slide out of my chair (though I technically only sat during the brilliantly performed The Hardest Part – cos he asked everyone to. If only they performed the Lost? version but did Lost! instead but equally as good). Had they had performed Warning Sign or Don’t Panic, I would have pissed myself – overall, the number 2 concert I have ever attended. The band was wonderfully warm and respectful of their audience, constantly thanking everyone for their Monday night. It was completely crazy when they had an acoustic set, standing in the middle of the audience, on the chairs. It was wonderful to feel that you weren’t just another stop on their tour. An amazing band live – I am so glad I went for this. Brill, brill, brilliant.

With all the changing seasons of my life, maybe I’ll get it right next time

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A couple of nights ago, I managed to catch the documentary of Guns N’ Roses on Bio Channel. I could not tear myself away and re-found one of my biggest passions of the 90’s. In spite of drifting apart and moving on past Use Your Illusion II (Spaghetti Incident was too crap to continue), I realised I still knew all the songs (even the ones never made popular on Bilboard) and all the band members names and remembered how completely in love I was with Axl Rose. (Axl Rose without dreads, that is).

After watching the documentary, I never realised how much trouble he was to the band and basically how he tried to buy them out in the end. By then, my rock love had passed on to Pearl Jam and Stone Temple Pilots (so, its quite natural for me to appreciate Velvet Revolver).

Minus the predictable hits of Guns N’ Roses (I seriously never liked Sweet Child O’ Mine), one of my all time favourite songs from them was “Estranged” off “Use Your Illusion II”. And listening to it now, more than 10 years since I last heard it, jeez, I remember the words, changes and drum fills. Great song (only over 9 minutes long). I think it lodged in my heart, a passion for progressive rock and ridiculously long songs, which later developed into a passion for Dream Theater. 20 minute song? Woo hoo!

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Estranged

When you’re talkin to yourself
And nobody’s home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what’ll happen to you baby
Guess we’ll have to wait and see
One, two 

Old at heart but I’m only 28
And I’m much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it’s getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don’t know how you’re s’posed
To find me lately
An what more could you ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn’t hesitate
If I’m to find my own way out

Still talkin’ to myself and nobody’s home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what’ll happen to us baby
Guess we’ll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I’ll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I’ll get it right next time
An now that you’ve been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You’re back down on the ground
And you don’t talk so loud
An you don’t walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river too many times 
to make it home
I’m out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn’t show give it time
To read between the lines
‘Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We’ve ever known’s here
Why must it drift away and die

I’ll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I’ll have to make it thru, this time 
Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we’ve ever known’s here
I never wanted it to die